 |
|
 |
|
|
|||
|
|
|
|
|
||||||||||||
     
|
|
“Nothing's Quite So Precious as Jesus in My Spirit”Even as a child, I had a relationship with the Lord. I was raised in a Christian home where my parents were faithful to plant the seeds of God's life in me. My grandmother also presented Jesus to me. I grew to love Him even then. His love for us is woven into my memories of talks with my mother and grandmother. I always knew that He was the One who was taking care of me. As I grew up I did the normal things that people do. I went to church meetings on Sundays and went on retreats with young people from my denomination and others. It was not until I was a junior or senior in high school that I became a seeker of Christ, though. Many things I was taught did not match the things I saw and I wondered why. I loved the pureness of Christ and yet my life did not match that, nor did the lives of many others Christians I knew or met with. I wondered if there really was a way to genuinely match Him-to be like Him as the Scriptures said. During this time many of my friends were unsaved. I loved being with them, and they knew that my life was for the Lord Jesus. I prayed for them, but often just in times of need. Years later, I found myself in great need of something real. My life was falling in around me, but my prayer then was just for the Lord to show me what He had that was real. The prayer just came out: “Lord, if you have something on this earth that is real, I want it!” Now, I am not a deep person, a deep thinker. When I remember that prayer now, I know it must have been the Lord praying in me! I do not think I would have prayed that on my own. Now I see that this prayer started something like a domino effect in my life. What had started falling apart soon fell completely apart. Little by little, through some negative situations, the Lord arranged for me to have an extended stay in another state, where I met some Christians who changed my life forever. My first meeting with the local church was a prayer meeting. When I first walked in, I sensed brightness. I loved hearing the different prayers and I there was a speaking inside of me: “You are home”. “You are home”? Where did that come from? This was not my home. But now, years later I know that this is God's home. He spoke to me in my spirit-my human spirit joined to His Spirit (1 Cor 6:17). All these years He had sovereignly planned all my circumstances up to the point to where He could speak to me and I would finally listen. I told him I wanted to be open to Him and to His speaking. Through the years He has been faithful to that prayer. He brought me to a place where he could open His Word to me. My relationship with Christ is sweet and pleasant. There have been many (MANY!) hard times, but as I go to Him and read His word, He meets me. While outwardly my situation may not be the way I want it to be, I am content inside knowing I am in His hands and this is divinely ordered for me this day. The greatest gift the Lord has given me is the ministry of Witness Lee and Watchman Nee. These two co-workers and dear brothers were so faithful to the Lord for us. Their writings have so beautifully opened up the Bible to me in ways I truly could never have imagined possible. It has been a great joy in my life to have known Witness Lee and to have been directly under his teaching. Because of his great love for the Lord and for the Body of Christ, he imparted into me a thirst for the truth. I am so thankful to the Lord for His leading me to love Him and to give myself to Him as well as for His care for me all these years. Martha Pearce | Back to List |
|
|
Home
|
|
